The Ramblings of a Hazy Mind

Every now and then I get these little voices in the back of my head that tell me I should quit my job, drop out of school, cut off all human contact, and start working on coding some amazing video games so you can get going on your damn goals, but then I stop and think about how much electricity it takes to run a computer and how difficult it is to generate that without simplay sending a check to the power company every month and I change my mind

I’m also entirely positive I couldn’t cut off human contact if I wanted to. Not only would I go entirely crazy in about 20 minutes just knowing that I was never going to see another human again, but I’m am also pretty sure I’d be in a terrible mood the whole time, and who can write good games when they are in a bad mood? Not me.

And anyway, I would much rather keep my current job, finish school, go on dates with my wonderful/gorgeous girlfriend, and hang out with other nerdly types when the chance arrives than sit at home and stare into the cold glow of my LCD’s while I listen to the ever comforing humm of my CPU fan… (uh huh..)

One of these days though, the game design itch is gonna come back, and I’ll just have to tell it to be patient and let me get there when I get there. Even if that might still be a while

Ok, as many of you who know me already know, school is not exactly my thing. Regardless of how smart I am, I just am not that good at school nor do I really care to be. I have absolutely no problem with skirting by on C’s (sorry mom, but you already knew it was true :/), but when my professors screw up and don’t put in test grades in the book and drop me to a failing grade I get a little angry.

Hopefully Mr. Year Back Yoo will be around in his office tomorrow so I can go in and ask him why he neglected to insert my final test score. Now part of the problem I am fully aware is that I missed a few of the tests in that class :/ but for once I did all the damned homework in one and I would like to at least have the friggin C to show for it…

Oh well. I am not going to stress too much about it because there are enough things going on in my life right now to completely remove any stress that school might cause me to have, (even when my parents scream at me about wasting my money if I’m not going to at least TRY to get a grade or two, which is completely understandable, but only relative to what they find important in life, and I’m not entirely sure our views in that respect are completely parallel.)

Anyway, to sum up this terrible semester I will probably end up retaking most of the classes I took even if I pass them just because I’m pissed and want to replace the grades I do get with something better. (Damned 8:00 AM Tests)

On the lighter side, I finally found the perfect girl and the perfect job (yes yes I know too good to be true and all that, but I think there are exceptions to any rule) and I am incredibly ecstatic about both of those areas of my life and all the time I get to sit and think about where they might be going (sounds a bit more upbeat than my previous whiny IS THERE NO GIRL FOR ME???? posts of past eh?)

Anyway, I have a physics final in 1.5 hours so I am going to hit the books (literally, with something very blunt and heavy), so until next time… ___Insert whitty closing line here___

Just thought I’d show my support for a group of people who probably go through the holdiays not being thought about as much as they should be. Visit the website and show some support by sporting a red ribbon. Anything we can do to help out those who are having a less fortunate or difficult holiday.